another month has passed...

how time does fly. in the hustle and bustle of routine life, days turn into weeks, and weeks turn into months. is this what "real life" really is? so this is the stuff of "back in the day" stories we hear our moms and dads gabbing on about...

this year in taipei, april showers did not bring may flowers. there has been a shortage of rain that is causing a water shortage in the city; if it doesn't start pouring soon the government will start rationing water. what a dismal reminder of global warming and the need to protect our environment...

the month started off with a long weekend (how lovely!), but somehow it seemed to fly by. as we roll into summer (literally, it feels like it went from winter to summer within the span of a week! so much for four seasons...), each day brings hotter weather, and more things to do at work.. may will be even crazier, with the taipei tourism expo in 10 short days and a business trip to guam rounding out the month..

i've had many reminders recently of my plans to return home, and i keep wondering how i'm going to get back to the life i once had--not only literally (find a job? go to grad school? and whichever i decide, how will i achieve my goal???), but emotionally and mentally. it seems my mind and my heart goes back and forth between determination and bravery, and contentment and fear.

is it, live the life you love, and love the life you live or, if you're not moving forward, you're falling behind ??? i wonder, am i just being nostalgic for the past, missing something that no longer exists? or is that just an excuse to stay in a life that's now comfortable and familiar...

in any case, i'm happy to say that my career goals have become clearer and clearer to me this past month, with at least a sense of direction if no concrete action plans. i'll get this right, sooner or later...